Another cold night when she was made to stay out of home and
dwell in the darkness of her fate.
It was only the next day when she was allowed in. Pramal had
not spoken to her while leaving for work and had not returned that night.
Sattvi’s mind and heart were in a whirlwind of thoughts and emotions. It was
only today that a series of event had kept her busy for the day and in a hurry
she’d burnt whatever rice were left for the month.
“What was that
behavior all about? What is your problem? How much do you expect her to care
for you? How much do you want her to give into your demands? Her youth, her
desires, her dreams, her wishes, her individuality, even her own self is lost.
All her love and attention has always been yours.
Not a single day, a
moment has she spent without chanting your name. What more do you ask of her?
Oh yes, like always
you’ll blame her. You’ve never asked for it all, but why don’t you understand
that when you went silent, she went numb. When you smiled, she was on cloud
nine. Your sadness stabbed her every moment. She shivered when you raised your
eyebrow. While you were busy weaving a world of pleasure and money, she was
chopping her pettiest to prettiest of desires and sautéing them to cook up a
delicacy of your choice always.
Of all the things in
life, she chose you and your happiness, your people and your conducts. Her
hunger was invoked when you declared that you wanted your meals. Your choice,
however unpleasant was accepted with a smile that was a captive of your
temperament. Have you ever asked her what she really wants? What are her
opinions and needs? What is that one thing she’d always wished after marrying
you? Have you even loved her? Do you even know what love and marriage is?
She has put her 42
good years in pure dedication towards you and this worthless relationship and yet has been denied of all the love and respect she deserves.
What is it with you?
What more do you want from her? “
Only Sattvi could have voiced her sentiments and fought for
her longing justice.
But only if she’d ever step out of that mirror.
Inspiration: The Silent Sea by Advaita Band and a friend's sketch "Mirrored or..."
Inspiration: The Silent Sea by Advaita Band and a friend's sketch "Mirrored or..."
In one word - sacrifice. Never a pretty emotion having survived it.
ReplyDeleteInteresting. This is smth I have never read in Expressions before. The voice of a mute emotion. And I particularly love the title. But one suggestion. You can do better justice to the title by ending the story with the word. Like.. "If only she could get something more in life than a presence always denied." Think about it and keep writing awesome :)
ReplyDeleteHey thanks for your valuable input. Shall keep it in mind and will include it for sure. Valid point made and taken. Yep, it's a fresh attempt of it's kind in Expressions and I'm amazed that you noticed.
DeleteRather, you can see it now. I have implemented your suggestion :)
DeleteHey Himani,
DeleteI nominated Expressions for the Liebster Award. See my post here: http://thestorytellingmom.wordpress.com/2012/11/15/and-the-award-goes-to/
A great way to get more bloggers to know about you!
The more different are among them, in my point of view, Very well written and certainly a pleasure to get into a blog
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An array of emotions flowing seemlessly without protagonist having to say a word.. Superb write up Himani.. beautiful expressions..
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